Eventually

What should have
happened
but never
did
would
eventually
become
what it takes
to be
a demon
but is
nothing
but an attempt to
be
as colossally
thirsty
as the host
of my oceans
nothing
but an attempt to
be
the outsider
of my corpse
nothing
but
your heart beating
slept
between my fingertips
to never
hurt myself
again
as only I
know how
to